From ER to WDS in 242 Days – The True Story of a Lonely Girl and How she found her Tribe



Me being absolutely 100% myself together with the most amazing ladies ever: Ana, Anne-Sophie and Farnoosh!

This is the story about a girl.  A story about desperation, overwhelming sadness and incredible hope.

I’m not going to pretend this story isn’t about me. But it’s not just about me. It’s also about you. And you. And you.

The story started way back (as it often does), but the turning point happened just this weekend.

In Portland.

Sit down, and grab a tissue if you’re easily moved. I’m about to tell you a story written from the heart and the gut. With tears steaming down my face. (In public, oh yes). Here we go:

25 years ago, on a cold December morning, a girl was born in a small town Norway called Gjøvik. Her eyes were pitch black and her hair was golden. She came into this world and was innocent and vulnerable. Her sheets were blank. Everything was possible.

She just needed love.

The girl was just like you and me.

However, when she grew up she didn’t feel safe in her own skin. She didn’t feel comfortable. She felt different, and it was hard.

The other children picked up on this and they were afraid. They didn’t want her to come to their parties. They didn’t want to play with her. And they said all kinds of hurtful things to protect themselves. And they did hurtful things to feel better about themselves. They were just kids, the girl can see that now. But it hurt nonetheless. It hurt a lot.

It didn’t take long until the girl started to doubt herself. What is wrong with me? Why I am not like all the other kids? Why am I not good enough?

This went on for 18 years.

And the girl broke down. Slowly. Suddenly. Completely.

Eight months ago, the girl didn’t want to live anymore. She had lost hope and she was incredibly, indescribably lonely. It felt like she was living her life behind plexiglass walls. People could see her, but no one could understand. No one could reach in.

And so she gave up. She cried. What about that dream of moving to New York City? What about that dream of helping people, of being of service? What about the writing that she loved, the blog that was the only thing worth living for?

And what about the friends she longed for, the community she wanted to be a part of, the love she wanted to share and receive?

It just seemed too hard. It felt like there was no possibility of change. And it felt like she was inherently not good enough.

And so the girl gave up. Not completely, not at first. She asked for help. She hurt herself and went to the emergency room. She was stitched up. She did it again. She stopped eating. And no help was offered. She did it again. And again. And again. She wanted to destroy herself. Completely.

She wanted to disappear.

And it felt like no one wanted her to stay.

A cold Monday morning in November 2011, the girl asked for help and spent two hours undergoing an emergency psychiatric evaluation. And then 6 hours in the Emergency room. But she wasn’t met with love, she was met with cold professionalism. Rejection. And disbelief. Just like in school, she felt totally, completely and utterly alone.

The girl bought pills. Lots of them. Pills, and a bottle of water. She had them in her bag. She walked out of the ER and she was ready. She had made up her mind. The world would be a better place without her in it.

She reached for the pills in her bag…

… and then her boyfriend called. Arranged for a friend to meet her 5 minutes later. Took her back to the ER and had her admitted to hospital. 


For the second time.

(There’s a long story between these brackets. If you follow the girl on her blog, the Freedom Experiment, she promises to tell it another time.)

After more than 5 stays in Emergency Psychiatric care, three months on a long-term ward and A LOT OF HARD WORK, the girl boarded a plane bound for Portland.

Two months after she was discharged from hospital. Three months after her last serious suicidal incident.

And in case you don’t know, leaving a psychiatric hospital is like being born again. She felt raw. She felt vulnerable. And she felt insecure.

But she knew one thing about herself: She was alive because of her blog and her writing and the support she had been given from her readers and the online community. (That, and an incredibly supportive boyfriend who loves her.) When walking through the darkest night of the soul, the online community held her hand. And she had a tiny flicker of hope: Maybe she would finally meet her people. Her tribe.

But the girl was really, scared. What if her tribe would reject her, just like everybody else? What if they would think she was a nobody, a loser, someone not worth talking to?

Or even worse yet, what if they just ignored her, hurtfully and cold, like she was used to?

The girl was really, really scared.

But thanks to a beautiful twist of fate (and careful planning) the first person she met was Friendliness. When Jana Schuberth met her outside the hotel, the girl felt relieved. Jana knew her from before and so the girl felt like she could be herself with Jana. She didn’t have to pretend. And so she didn’t. And they became even closer friends. And it felt good.

The girl was holding her breath when she entered the hotel room to meet her roommate for the first time. But she didn’t just meet a roommate – she met Acceptance. Ana Ottman turned out to be the best roommate the girl could ever have wished for. They have a lot in common and they talked and talked. The girl started to feel like a real human being, she started to feel hopeful. Maybe this was her people after all? And it wasn’t just the conversation that gave her hope. Ana saw the scarred arms and she still didn’t reject the girl. And that meant everything to her.

The girl sat in the auditorium, nervous and scared, and listened to Brené Brown speak. And Brené said just what the girl had needed to hear: You belong here. Just three words, but the impact it had on the girl was huge.




Because it gave the girl confidence. It gave the girl inspiration. And it gave the girl a newfound sense of attitude. Brené told her that she didn’t have to be ashamed, that she didn’t have to be scared. Brené told the girl it was okay to say “suck it” and go on. Brené made the girl feel Empowered.

And then the girl had dinner with Tracy and Stephanie and Christina. But she didn’t only meet three beautiful souls, she met Leadership, she met Beauty and she met Transformation. And it was just what the girl needed. Although she felt young, and naive and less successful – she also felt accepted. She felt included. And she felt peace. The girl searched her heart and discovered that she had something of value ot give offer the women in return. The girl felt she was worthy and unique.

On Sunday morning, the girl finally met someone she had been longing to meet – Compassion in human form. Rachel Cole, although always inspiring and beautiful online, is even more radiant in person. That woman is a healer. And it gave the girl hope that she too could heal her eating disorder. That she too can fill her true hungers. And Rachel made the girl feel well-fed too.

And so it continued: Throughout the weekend, the girl met people whose projects gave the girl goose bumps because it felt so right. The girl met people who shared her story of suffering, she met people who have done what she is about to do, she met just the right person at just the right time. (If the girl met with you this weekend and you are not mentioned here, fear not. The girl will e-mail you and express her gratitude. It’s a promise.)

And it felt good.

The girl grew more confident and she finally, for the first time in her life, felt like she could be herself. She could walk up to somebody, introduce herself, and meet new people.

So she walked up and introduced herself to her heroes. The woman whose old blog posts about depression meant more to the girl than the woman probably knows (Now, you know why I am so grateful for you, Danielle!). The girl met her photography and unraveling inspiration and they ended up having a great conversation. She met the internet superstars and the girl slowly realized that they were just like her.

Apparently, having thousands of followers does not automatically mean that you suddenly have your shit together. Even the most amazing people are insecure and sometimes less than nice if you catch them at the wrong time.

The girl started feeling that she, too, could succeed. She, too, has what it takes.

And so it became that she was no longer afraid to be herself. She was no longer ashamed of who she is. And she started to trust in people. In the world.

And then the most amazing people on this earth started trusting in her.

Offers of collaboration, compliments, deep conversations, tweets of appreciation. People sent the girl e-mails and tweets telling her how amazing she was. People told the girl that she was beautiful. Even with scars, even when eating disorder skinny, even though she is tall and awkward and pale. Even when insecure.

(For your information, the girl is crying when she is typing right now. Tears of joy. Tears of gratitude. Tears of relief.)

And just when the girl thought it could not possibly become ANY better, she was met with one of the grandest acts of Generosity she has ever witnessed. Chris Guillebeau invested $100 dollars in the girl and said go back out in the world and make a difference.

Chris Guillebeau believed in the girl.

And so did 999 other people.

That girl is sitting at Portland International Airport right now. That girl is forever changed.

And of course, that girl is me.

And I can honestly say that the World Domination Summit has changed my life. It has changed who I am. Not just in terms of how I will run my business, how I will go back and take action, how I will raise to the occasion and be of service in the world.

No, the World Domination Summit and all the people I’ve met have changed how I feel about myself.

Finally – after 25 years on this earth – I feel a sense of deep connection and belonging.

I feel valuable.

I feel free.

And I feel that the world will be a better place with me in it.

I feel like I want to live. I need to live. The world needs me.

And even though I am good with words – words can not express my gratitude.

Words cannot express my love. My relief, my hope, my sense of possibility, my feeling of belonging, my overwhelming sadness and ache for the little girl who was so, so lost.

I have found my tribe. I have found love. I have found myself.

And I am ready to pass it on.

It get’s better.

And if you don’t know it already, you have the power to save a life, to change a person forever. Your support makes a difference.

So stay tuned – that girl is ready to change the world.

And she’ll be rockin’ world change with a brand new soundtrack. With a thousand people watching her back. With a thousand people singing the same song.

Don’t YOU EVER stop believin’.


{ 90 comments… read them below or add one }

Heather Thorkelson July 11, 2012 at 1:41 am

blown. away. sweet jesus YES we need you! my first impression of you was that you were beautiful and mysterious and when you spoke i felt an immediate warmth and connection. i can’t wait to get to know you better. to collaborate. to crack up for hours (because I know we will). hell yeah girl – so so happy to have met you and THANK YOU for sharing your story. it resonates big time, and the world needs more of you. HUGE hugs!


Rachelia July 11, 2012 at 1:45 am

This brought tears to my eyes! I’ve been a follower for a while, and get so much out of your posts. It’s great to hear that this World Domination Summit was so great for you. It sounds like it was a very healing experience, and just the one you needed to start a new chapter in your life. All the best!


Alicia July 11, 2012 at 1:58 am

Courageous post Marthe!


Nailah July 11, 2012 at 1:59 am

This is gorgeous. I am so happy that we randomly sat next together at that coffee shop. The world has a funny way of bringing you together with the perfect people at the perfect time. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability.



suki July 11, 2012 at 2:00 am

I want to reach through the internet and hug you. Thank you for sharing your story! Though we didn’t get to meet this weekend, some time this year? Next year at WDS? :)


Karen Talavera July 11, 2012 at 2:18 am

First, THANK YOU for your vulnerability and willingness to share (ah, tears streaming down face in public – I CAN so relate! Be bold, be open. You get used to it with practice).

Second, redheads rock and DON’T YOU EVER FORGET IT! When I met you yesterday, all I saw was how beautiful you were and thought “another rockin’ redhead. Yeah!”. After speaking with you a while, my expanded impression was “still waters run deep”.

Third, despite where you’ve been in the past, it was the path that brought you to where you are today so you can go where you’re destined to in the future. NOTHING IS WASTED – ever! So thank you for your boldness and courage in walking your journey thus far. I look forward to being part of it, and will be in touch.

I’m so proud of you (so freakin’ proud) after reading this! You are so young and fresh with so much ahead for you. As we all approach re-entry to our lives after WDS, be kind to yourself. Go slowly and gently. Savor and nurture. Bask in the joy. Hugs and love to you.


Emily July 11, 2012 at 2:31 am

aw, hell, now you have me with tears streaming down my face in a public place. So happy to be in the tribe with you! xoxo


Emily July 11, 2012 at 2:33 am

Aw, heck, now you’ve got me with tears streaming down my face while sitting in a public place! Could not be happier than to be in the tribe with you and looking forward to a power rendezvous in July if not before… xoxo


Denise Taylor July 11, 2012 at 2:36 am

Thanks so much for sharing your story, I am so pleased we met and I’ll be following your progress – you know you are amazing – x


Becs July 11, 2012 at 3:28 am

You are AH-MAZING! The hardest things to overcome are the things in your head – if you can change those, you will rock this life. Much Love xo


Nikki July 11, 2012 at 5:42 am

Congratulations :) I’ve been reading your blog for a while and even though I’ve been inspired and loved your posts, this one is different. I can literally feel the freedom radiating from you. I can’t wait to see what you do with it.


Nikki July 11, 2012 at 5:43 am

Congratulations! I’ve been reading your blog for a while and even though I’ve been inspired and loved your posts, this one is different. I can literally feel the freedom radiating from you. I can’t wait to see what you do with it.


Ally July 11, 2012 at 5:45 am

That was really, really moving! I’m glad you had such a good time at World Domination Summit and met so many wonderful people. You’ve come so far and this article is really inspiring! :)


Tony Newell July 11, 2012 at 6:43 am

I want you to stay.
I was there, I saw you smiling, I was one of the introverts hanging back with my wife as a shield. Thank you for sharing. We have much in common.
I hope to see you at WDS 2013. I will say hello.


Aimee's Simple Living for Busy People July 11, 2012 at 6:51 am

Wow. Thank you for your transparency and guts to post this. By being authentic in this way, this is how I have found to be of maximum service in this world. So thank you for your example and your message. You are not alone, and ABSOULTELY, you *definitely* matter and you belong here. So glad that I met you at WDS.


Rita July 11, 2012 at 7:21 am

Wow. Wow. Just wow. I didn’t meet “the girl” however, I did hear the girl ask a question in the Danielle Laporte session on Saturday and I thought the girl was beautiful and now I think she’s beautiful and courageous. I’m sorry I didn’t get to hug you before you left, but if you promise to come back next year, I’ll save you one.


jennette July 11, 2012 at 7:23 am

You choose authenticity, you are brave, vulnerable and imperfect. you are enough.( i have this tattooed on me but with “I” stmt) :)
I was at wds with you but we didnt get to meet. i do remember seeing you. i hope we can connect in person at next years wds.
stay awesome and if anyone gives you hell, tell em to suck it!
big love,


Bee July 11, 2012 at 8:10 am

“And it felt like no one wanted her to stay.”

And that was when I started crying. Because I felt exactly like that earlier this year, and because *I* [and so many others] want you to stay.


Barbara July 11, 2012 at 2:07 pm

Marthe, im so happy for you!
Your words are beautiful!
Keep smiling and beleiving in yourself.


Ellie Di July 11, 2012 at 4:21 pm

I love you SO MUCH, darling. I knew a lot of the first part of this story, and I felt terrible because I was helpless to make it better. It makes me incredibly happy to know that not only did you make it through that long, dark night of the soul, but you came through the other side even more magnificent than you were before. I’m honoured to be able to know you, even if it’s not as well as I’d like, and I’m fascinating to see where you go from here. Drop me a line if you ever need anything – you know where to find me. <3


jandi July 11, 2012 at 5:12 pm

thank you for your story!! thank you for your blog!! you inspire me to carry out my dreams and see them through… i dont know you, but i’m so proud of you!!!


Mandy July 11, 2012 at 7:16 pm

Amazing, amazing, amazing. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences with us. It takes so much strength and bravery to do that! Also, thank you for linking all those bloggers. I’m excited to check them out.

Keep up the awesome! :)


Ana July 11, 2012 at 7:38 pm

You are one brave, kick-ass woman. I’m honored to have been a part of this story.

#wds2013 baby



Jana July 11, 2012 at 7:40 pm

i. love. you.
that is all. xoxo


Carmen July 11, 2012 at 9:05 pm

I love you.
And I’ve never met you.
Keep going.
You’re going to change the world.
I believe in you.


alisha July 11, 2012 at 7:52 pm

Sooo happy that you had this amazing experience. That you rose, like a pheonix. A new beginning for you; you can only go up from here.


Danielle LaPorte July 11, 2012 at 8:36 pm

believing. and cheering. and bowing. xoxo


eloranicole July 11, 2012 at 8:50 pm

what a beautiful, vulnerable, breathtaking story. thank you for sharing. thank you for living. you know what? you DO belong here.


Stephanie July 11, 2012 at 9:12 pm

Oh sweet Marthe! You are so beautiful. So raw. And so alive!
Sitting with you and the girls at dinner was one of the highlights of my trip. Your quiet reverence for life and deep well of vulnerability really touched me.
You are amazing and I am just lucky to have crossed paths with you last weekend!
Love & hugs to you!!


Alisha Golden July 11, 2012 at 9:29 pm

One of the most beautiful things in the world is when our souls come out to play. Sending love. Looking forward to more beauty. xoxo


Loretta Cella July 11, 2012 at 9:30 pm

I heard you speak in Pam Slims workshop (I believe it was you) I went looking for you after to connect but you had left.And now even more so feel that want/need. You have the power of inspiring soooo many girls I know and work with and will work with in the future. would love to talk!… ps.. you rock sister!


Morgan July 11, 2012 at 9:35 pm

empowering :)


Kate July 11, 2012 at 9:36 pm

Okay – you just convinced me to go next year. I’m sure I will be thanking you in person :)


Angel July 11, 2012 at 10:26 pm

Marthe! You’re unbelievably amazing!!! You just remind me of what you always say, “like a phoenix, raise from the ashes!”

Can’t believe that it’s been two years since I met you in London, where your inspiration started making a positive impact on me. And now, I can’t wait to see you in a week in NYC, where the dream shall be carried on!



Karin Pinter July 11, 2012 at 10:33 pm

Welcome to your new world.
And thank you for being You.


wholly jeanne July 11, 2012 at 10:43 pm

and this girl is barely able to read your beautiful post because tears distort words, you know. they are tears of heartbreak for you and for my daughter who has walked your path, tears of beauty in your words – i mean, just the word “hope” is enough beauty to last a good long while, and there are tears of sadness because i didn’t get to meet you in person. but now, i will keep tabs, and next year i’ll call you Sugar to your beautiful, smiling face. i can’t wait.


Amy Scott July 11, 2012 at 10:53 pm

You are AMAZING, Marthe! I had no idea what stories and history and struggles you carried with you to WDS – I just connected with the lovely sweet soul I saw standing near me. And now I wish I had had a chance to give you a big hug before we went our separate ways. Yes, you DO belong here. At WDS, and in the world. Maybe I’ll see you in Peru next year?? xoxo


Laura July 11, 2012 at 11:08 pm

This is beautiful in every way! I am so glad your life turned around for the better. I know the feeling of leaving a psych hospital, its terrifying. But once you find your place in the world, life is so amazing!


Bethany Aleshire July 11, 2012 at 11:11 pm

Oh my word amazing. My heart wants to hug you & throw confetti and have a dance party for you. I relate with your words SO MUCH as I start to make my path in this world (I’m 15 ;) and feel like I’ll just be another body in my industry. Somedays I feel mildly depressed & doubtful & lost. It sucks. But, I have something valuable inside me too, we all do if we let it out & SHINE!! I just need to let it out. I love your writing. So authentic. Thank you for being courageous & sharing your story. Cheers on changing the world! Can’t wait to see you do it! xoxo Bethany Aleshire (your newest fan :)


DJ July 11, 2012 at 11:16 pm

Congratulations! I’m happy to hear there really is hope and freedom.


Guillaume Ceccarelli July 12, 2012 at 2:56 am

This is the first time I read a story this genuine, this moving and this meaningful. This, you, are simply beautiful. Welcome home to your tribe! :)


Erin Oveis Brant July 12, 2012 at 4:08 am

You are the epitome of beauty and bravery. I am so happy you have found your people! I look forward to all the incredible things you will do with your precious (and important!) life <3 xo


Jeffrey Sumber July 12, 2012 at 4:17 am

I’m so grateful to have met this girl and that she was willing to be vulnerable. She is beautiful in so many ways and I look forward to getting to know her even better down the road.


Laura Simms July 12, 2012 at 5:25 am

I believe.


jaye July 12, 2012 at 11:46 am

Thank you for this beautiful story. Hope is real. Positive change is real. Love & Light to you!

<3 Jaye


Lee Horbachewski July 12, 2012 at 6:04 pm

A girl was admitted into a psychiatric ward in 2004.

Met with the cold harsh reality of emptiness. Put in a small white cell and left alone. Hours later she was escorted to her bed and left on her own.

Frightened, filled with panic and fear the girl didn’t know what to do. She collapsed in front of the nurses station, wrapped up in a fetal position crying uncontrollably. Patients and staff just walked past her as if she was a piece of furniture. A week later the girl would make three attempts on her life.

Fast forward to 2012. The girl is beginning to lose hope. Her blog that she has lovingly written since 2007 rarely garners a comment. She feels alone. Feels that no one cares about her dream to have mental illness talked about as openly as cancer.

The girl has reached out over and over again to organizations and keeps coming up against walls. Wall after wall her hope and resilience are battered.

Enter in another girl. An angel who shares a blog knowing it will touch this girls heart and give her hope.

The girl is me, another girl is Gemma Stone and the blog is this one.
Thank you
Hugs & Love
Lee xoxoxox


Laura Gates July 12, 2012 at 6:37 pm

Beautiful beautiful post. AND wonderful writing. Thank you for sharing. It was lovely to meet you in Portland and now to hear the story behind you, and your commitment to being here and working through and really showing up. And to relive the experience through your eyes. I am sure you will do amazing things!


Jim H July 12, 2012 at 6:41 pm

Rock on Marthe!


Sam Breach July 12, 2012 at 7:21 pm

I am sorry I didn’t get to meet you at WDS – maybe next year. So happy for you that your light has started to burn so brightly. Congratulations.


Thomas Nelson July 12, 2012 at 7:21 pm

Simply beautiful. Your life and words seem have already changed many in the world. The world is certainly better for you being in it. Hopefully we’ll cross paths someday. Keep being amazing!


lora kathleen July 12, 2012 at 7:23 pm

Marthe – You are so inspiring and strong. I am so happy you shared this with us and so happy to have been able to meet you. I truly believe you will do amazing things and can’t wait to find out what those are!


t July 12, 2012 at 7:38 pm

My story is nearly identical to you. WDS has been on my radar, and I used to live in portland but now am in philadelphia. I hope someday to reach that level of recovery and motivation you have. I’m still in the in/out of hospital stage. Thanks for sharing your story though it gives me just one smaller little hint/sliver of hope that I can get there too, maybe I can have friends someday too, and lead my life with passion and share my gifts without fear. I’ve been working on believing in myself for a long time. Getting closer everyday even though it feels like taking steps backwards sometimes.


Marianne July 12, 2012 at 8:29 pm

Amen. 100x amen. No-one belongs here more than you/me.


Dorothy July 12, 2012 at 9:24 pm

Thank you for sharing your life with me through your story. I wish there had been the internet available years ago when I was living a similar story. Truly, it is impossible to feel alone when I read that you and I have experienced the same. No mental argument can cut the connection. No “other” can truthfully say they understand unless they have been there in the dungeon themselves. Thank you for beginning to believe in yourself and sharing that with us.


Shelly Kerry July 12, 2012 at 10:29 pm

So so beautiful! Thanks so much for sharing. It sounds like you really embraced the weekend and shined.
There were so many people and although I tried to smile at everyone I saw I might have missed you. I did notice you saying to myself “who is that lovely girl with that beautiful hair?” I am pretty sure you were glowing.
Nice to meet you now and sending you the biggest hug possible, Shelly


Jeff King July 13, 2012 at 12:02 am

Hi Marthe. Its so nice to meet you. That is what I would have said had I introduced myself to you at WDS. I actually sat next to you in our little balcony section during one of the sessions in the Newmark. You were deep in conversation with Jana and I never found the right moment to say hello. I did meet Jana on Sunday. I guess I became a little less shy by day 3 of the event. She had saved a seat for you, but you hadn’t arrived yet. When you came in I again meant to introduce myself, but the lights went down and I again missed my chance. I too went to WDS to find my tribe, but I am very much an introvert so I didn’t meet as many people as I hoped. When the summit was over, I couldn’t help but wonder who I could have met and in particular, who were those people on my row that I didn’t meet. Imagine my surprise when I happened across you picture on the top of you blog. Maybe I can still connect with some of those people I missed after all. So, Hello Marthe. My name is Jeff. Its so nice to meet you. Maybe next year, in person.


Sabrina July 13, 2012 at 12:14 am

Thank you for sharing your story! Of course you need to be in this world, because my day is already better for reading your words :)


Rosalind July 13, 2012 at 3:12 am

WONDERFUL….we all feel this way at some point, but do not actually physically hurt ourselves. We just think about doing it. You are brave and have EVERYTHING to live for…..not one of us is here by mistake, we each have something to give to the universe. Keep up your lovely writing…


Lela Iselin July 13, 2012 at 3:18 am

very beautiful……thank you…..I am very happy to be one of the other 999 of your tribe…….and so many more to come I’m sure!


Steph July 13, 2012 at 3:55 pm

Didn’t think I’d be needing a tissue but in the end I did… I have shared your pain Marthe, and I’m also still looking for my tribe. I’m so glad you found them, and that you opened yourself, and that you’re healing. The world really needs gentle but powerful souls like you to help it move forward right now. I look forward to seeing where you go :)


Heather George July 13, 2012 at 6:15 pm

Thanks for the morning cry, good for the soul…you are indeed a very good writer, please keep sharing your important story. BTW, have you heard of “The Book of Qualities” by Ruth Gendler? Check it out if not – your writing about who you met reminded me of it. :)


Natalie July 13, 2012 at 6:22 pm

How beautifully vulnerable. I too have never felt like I belonged anywhere. But you and I have a place in this world, and the world will be all the more beautiful for it.


Polly July 13, 2012 at 6:35 pm

tears are rolling down my face reading this. this could so easily have been written by me.

i’ve just come across your website and it is amazing – huge loves to you xxxx


Sarah Steele | Managing You Academy July 13, 2012 at 6:46 pm

Amen sister! So beautifully written – you have such a wonderful gift. Thank you so much for sharing.


Angela Giese July 13, 2012 at 9:41 pm

Coming from a long history of depression myself, over 13 years of double depression, I can relate to how you feel. It really is about surrounding yourself with the right people, and our right kind of people are the WDS crowd. I was there too and felt the love and generosity from everyone around me. You’re on your way to having a brighter and more fulfilling life. Let’s keep being influenced by great people, and hopefully we can influence and help others like us in turn.


Hillary Rubin July 14, 2012 at 12:07 am

brave. honest. raw. gorgeous soul… we did not officially meet. I saw you a few times and wanted to give you a hug. thank you for being vulnerable and happy you found where you fit in. I completely understand.


Felicity Fields July 14, 2012 at 10:14 pm

Right on, girlfriend. I’m sorry I didn’t get to meet you, but I sure hope you’ll be at WDS next year. Know that I’m one of the 1,000 people who believe in you, and who’s singing right alongside you. Don’t Stop Believin. :)


Tal Gur July 16, 2012 at 5:43 am

Great writing! Keep living your dreams :)


Rob July 16, 2012 at 1:41 pm

Hi Marthe,

This is an amazing post. I love it.

I only got to meet you to say hi last weekend, Ana introduced us briefly. I wish I’d have had more time. Maybe next year?


Stephanie at Visible and Real July 16, 2012 at 5:38 pm

This is an amazing story. Thank you for your courage, your honesty, and your words.


Lori-Ann July 16, 2012 at 6:00 pm

I am so pleased to meet you, your honesty, and your beautiful writing style. I survived depression too, and am starting to write more honestly about it. Thank you for your inspiring leadership in this post–I’ll be singing along!


Liss (daydream lily) July 16, 2012 at 11:56 pm

thank you for being so very brave and sharing your story with us all. I can relate to it a lot. in fact I often dont get out and share it…but my blog started when I was in a very low depressed state and my psychologist told me to find something to do with my time that wasnt my work. I discovered a crafting group and from that group I found blogging. blogging saved me from a very low point in my life where I wasnt sure life was worth living anymore. x


Alarwyn July 17, 2012 at 1:04 am

Thank you so much for this, I really needed to hear this today. I’m so glad you have found your tribe, I’m still looking for mine, but I think I already have a couple of keepers – and those are worth all the treasures in the world.


Jess @ Sparrow + Sea July 17, 2012 at 6:12 am

Marthe, what an amazing story you tell, and ‘that girl’ in the story is so many girls.
The awfulness of depression is so difficult to accurately explain to others, but you have done so with such honest, beautiful words.
I have been wondering whether I wanted to write about my own battle with depression on my blog – it’s so personal, and still so gut-achingly difficult to talk about and share. But you are a true inspiration, especially in terms of showing the value of sharing such stories… I know that when I was in the midst of the dark-shit-times, reading about other people’s experiences helped me so much. And here you are writing amazing truths for others so bravely… You make me want to step up.


Sweet Lime and Spiced Tea July 18, 2012 at 5:06 am

I cannot begin to imagine the courage it has taken for you to write this post. I thank you for that courage and for bringing to light feelings that so many of us face. I often wonder where I would be if it were not for my loved ones. Thank you for your vulnerability + honesty. You are obviously one amazing woman – feel blessed to share in your journey. jas xx


Krissy July 18, 2012 at 6:46 am

Marthe!! I don’t quite know what to say right now except that I’m bawling my eyes out and that you are incredible and inspiring and such a deeply kind and caring person, and I know what one person says on the internet can’t fix the past, but know that I am always, always here and that I believe in you so so much. You were one of the first people I connected with online, and I’m so glad to have “met” you. I can tell you’re already in a much better place, but please never ever feel like you can’t reach out to me even if we’re continents apart. :)
Gosh, this makes me want to come to NYC to see you even more. I’m going to crunch some numbers & dates again and see if I can make it work. Because I really, really want to met up.
How long are you there?


colby July 18, 2012 at 11:40 am

SO Proud of you Marthe – blessed to know you, cheering for you always! x x


Emily July 22, 2012 at 6:25 am

Thank you for being so brave and posting this!! Like others have said, struck a real cord with me, seems we all come up against similar negative inner critics!!

I’ve been free from eating disorder nastiness for 3 full years now (am 26) and I just want to reassure you again – it IS possible to live a life where food, calories, exercise, skinniness etc doesn’t rule. Not going to lie, its tough to break the habit, but you sound like you’re ready for the challenge, and the rewards are totally worth it.

Best of luck Marthe! Xx


Rebecca July 23, 2012 at 11:08 am

I only just got round to reading this post. I’m not going to say I know exactly what you’ve been through, because I don’t. But I’ve had a taste of it. The isolation, that feeling of rejection. I feel for you, so much.

But you know what else? I’m in awe of you! Your courage and honesty are inspiring and I’m unbelievably excited to hear that things are falling into place for you. You deserve it. I’m so privileged to have connected with you.

Sending you millions of hugs and the highest of fives! <3


Rich Proctor July 23, 2012 at 10:31 pm

Hi Marthe,

I was not at WDS, but I have read a whole bunch of blogs by people who did attend (so many that I almost feel I was there). I’m definitely making plans to attend in the future.

Yours was, without-a-doubt, the post that had the biggest impact on me. I can’t thank you enough for having the courage to share your remarkable story.

My very best to you as you move forward into your bright future.


Nathalieso August 13, 2012 at 11:02 pm

Following you since Unravelling class (although I didn’t partake much in it), you’ve made your way, you’re really worth it. I really like what you do here.


Amanda August 29, 2012 at 3:38 am

I found you on Pinterest and am simply in love with your honesty and humility. Your story moved me, and I connected with your journey of finding compassion and self acceptance after battling self shame. Your story is so beautiful – I so appreciate you for sharing it with us!! I’m thrilled to be following your blog!! xoxo


Kalmia Hockin September 27, 2012 at 5:50 pm

thank you for sharing your story <3

Lovely :)


Brene October 23, 2012 at 5:07 pm

Thank you for being brave and giving the rest of us a little more courage.

I believe.


Marthe October 24, 2012 at 12:07 pm

Thank you.


hay May 12, 2013 at 3:34 am

Sending an extraordinary amount of love. Only found your site yesterday, wish you lived closer : ) x


Elisabeth January 6, 2014 at 11:51 pm

So courageous to share your story, you’ve passed courage to others to believe in themselves and trust that things will get better, they always do. Thank you for doing what you do, you give love to others and comfort. Xx


Pablo Olarte January 16, 2014 at 3:22 pm

I admire you so much. I love the courage and the honesty you give to the world. You are a beautiful being. Please keep writing, an being who you are.

Thank you for hope and possibility,


andres guerra March 19, 2016 at 12:27 am

I am so happy for you since i can totally empathize with you.


Suzanne Cartwright January 11, 2017 at 11:57 pm

Thank you for this it has made me sob laugh and shown me a way. Much love xx


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