I'm going back to the stars
Slowly, I'm coming back to myself.
A couple of months ago, I had the realisation that I'm not fully in alignment. I realised that I needed to change a few things. I realised that the way I was living – and giving – wasn't sustainable. I realised that I had let myself slip ever so slightly in the wrong direction. I realised that I no longer could truly hear my own vibrations over all the noise.
I realised that I had lost the ability to see the stars, behind the bright lights of my busy lifestyle.
And so began the season of unloading.
Over the course of a weekend, I cleaned out my entire apartment and let go of almost half of the contents of my closets and cupboards. I deleted more than 1000 files from my computer. I donated more than half of my book collection. I burned all the old paper documents that were just lying around my house. I substantially lightened the load. And it felt great.
Since then, I've made the decision to significantly change my lifestyle and only keep what's essential. For me this means that I want to own less things, I want to shop and consume less, I want to reduce my waste load and turn to more organic and sustainable options. I want more space and more freedom. I guess that in a lot of ways, I'm circling back to what has been my purpose all along; to feel free.
I am still continuing the process, and this website is coming up next. Over the next couple of months I'll be deleting any posts that no longer align with my purpose. I'll write more about lifestyle and freedom, and less about what weighs us down. The site will be getting a much needed makeover, including a more mobile-friendly interface. And if you pay attention, you'll notice that I've grown and changed a lot since I started this blog. It's time to share my essential self with the world. I'm growing into myself.
This past weekend, I was lucky enough to visit my friend's family cabin on a tiny island in the archipelago just off the coast of Norway, close to the Swedish border. When I woke up on Sunday morning, I went for a walk and sat down next to the ocean, listening to the early morning birds. And then I asked myself what I need to do.
The answer surprised both surprised me, and it didn't.
The voice within said write.
And so that's what I will do. I think stripping away some layers is making the obvious more clear. I am a writer after all. That has been my mission all along.
So this is the process. In order to understand what is important, you have to let go of the noise. You have to let go of everything that is just contributing to the confusion – so you'll have the space to truly meet yourself and listen to the whisper from within.
I'm finally hearing my own voice, and I hope this post inspires you to find yours.
Either way, I'm starting to see the outline of the path.
I'm going back to the stars.